20's Bucket List · Happiness · Personal · Spiritual

Psychic, CHECK.

I did it! Checked one more off the list and went to a psychic with my best friend while she was visiting me from New York. I gotta say, getting a reading was way more fun when you have someone there to go with you (and have lots of wine afterwards and talk about your feelings).

I decided to get a Tarot reading instead of going to a “Clairvoyant” (i.e. someone who can see the future) because I felt like with Tarot, the interpretation is more up to me than to the person doing the reading. I wanted to be able to take advice as I wanted without being too influenced by someone else. I think the power of thought and suggestion is EXTREMELY powerful so I wanted to be able to take the advice I was given and make sure I used it for good.

With all that said, here ’tis! I’ve included an awesome, simple, clear guide to reading the cards from biddy tarot, along with an interpretation from psychic revelation of each of the cards that came up for me. At the end, I’ve written down what I wrote after leaving the room and what I took away from what my psychic said. Here goes…

My Celtic Cross Tarot Reading:

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My Question: What am I supposed to take from this bucket list as I leave my 20s behind and transition into my 30’s?

Card 1: The present. This card represents what is happening to the querent at the present time. It also reflects the querent’s state of mind and how they may be perceiving the situation.

My Card 1: 6 of Wands. In general, the 6 is about happiness and celebration. You are about to see some results for your hard work and efforts. Give yourself a break or treat yourself in some way. You have certainly earned it.

Card 2: The challenge. This card represents the immediate challenge or problem facing the querent. This is the one thing that, if resolved, would make life a lot easier. Even if you draw a ‘positive’ card in this position, consider it carefully as it will still represent a challenge.

My Card 2: Queen of Swords. In general the Queen of Swords can indicate that your instincts are serving you well. You already know what it is you want and need, now you just have to go after it. Be mindful of other people’s boundaries as you are doing so, however. This Queen has forceful energy which some people find abrasive.

Card 3: The past. This card represents the events that have lead up to the present situation and may provide some indication of how the challenge came about.

My Card 3: Queen of Pentacles. This card can indicate that you will be spending time, money, and energy on your home, getting it to be more comfortable. This is a good thing, provided you don’t take on too much debt. People will be looking to you for insight and/or advice. You will be able to help them, if you are so inclined. This is a time period when you can get a lot accomplished.

Card 4: The future. This card represents what is likely to occur within the next few weeks or even months. This is not the final outcome, simply the next step on the journey.

My Card 4: 7 of Wands. When the 7 of Wands appears, you are likely to find that in any sort of competitive situation, that you come out on top. Things should be going very well, you should be feeling good, and projects should be moving right along. You may still have regular moments of self-doubt, unfortunately, but now is time to feel the fear, and do it anyway. This card can indicate that a change is coming – a positive change – in your personal or business life. This card also points toward being independent and thinking for yourself.

Card 5: Above. This card reflects the querent’s goal, aspiration or best outcome with regards to the situation. It is what the querent is working towards consciously as they attempt to resolve the issue.

My Card 5: 8 of Cups. Know that renewed good times lie ahead for you. If your “gut” is telling you that you really need to get out of a relationship, job, or living arrangement, trust yourself. Instead of this coming out of the blue, or someone or something leaving you, it usually means that you are the one who will make this choice. Very often one door has to close behind you before the next door in front of you can fully open.

Card 6: Below. This card reflects that which is within the subconscious realm of the querent and delves much deeper into the core foundation of the situation. It symbolises the underlying feelings and trends associated with the situation and can indicate what is truly driving the querent. This card may bring a surprise message to the querent, particularly if they are not deeply connected to their inner being (watch out for reversed cards here which are likely to indicate that this is an ‘unknown’ to the querent).

My Card: 9 of Cups. The appearance of this card is usually a portent of happiness, and good things about to come. It also usually means that what you want is likely to come into being in your life. If asking a yes/no type of question, this card is the most powerful indicator of “yes”, but like everything else in the tarot, that is not carved in stone.

Card 7: Advice. The advice card takes into account all that is happening within the querent’s life and presents a recommendation for what approach can be taken to address the current challenges.

My Card 7: Justice. This card evokes the need for fairness, balance, and harmony. Operate in as balanced and reasonable a fashion as you can. This includes in how you think about and treat yourself. You need to be sure that your work/life balance is where it needs to be. It’s important to “stay in the moment” and, once again, to pay attention to how you are (or are not) keeping a sense of balance in your life.

Card 8: External influences.  This card highlights the people, energies or events which will affect the outcome of the question and are beyond the querent’s control.

My Card 8: 6 of Swords. Generally the 6 shows at least a slight reduction in stress and strain. Things may not be perfect, but they are going to be better than they may have been in the recent past. Take this time to get your head above water and decide where you’re going from here. Even a short break or change of scenery will be helpful. This doesn’t have to cost money. Trust that the universe is taking you to where you want to be, and that all this is happening for a reason.

Card 9: Hopes and/or fears. This is perhaps one of the most difficult positions to interpret. Keep in mind that hopes and fears are closely intertwined, therefore that which we hope for may also be that which we fear, and so may fail to happen. Sometimes it is useful to draw a second card for clarification after the reading has been laid and to read the two together.

My Card 9: 9 of Wands, reversed. When the 9 of Wands reversed comes up, it is important not to “beat yourself up,” if you find your mental, emotional, or physical strength waning. None of us can be perfectly strong all the time. Allow yourself to lean on someone or something positive, and know that your strength will return. Everything is a cycle.

Card 10: Outcome. This card is representative of where the situation is headed and if/how the issue will be resolved. It assumes the outcome based on the querent continuing their current course of action. Of course, if the outcome card is not a desirable outcome, it is within the free will of the querent to make the necessary changes to their situation.

My Card 10: Actually was given 3- Temperance, Hanged Man, Knight of Wands- ALL reversed.

  • Temperance, reversed: Even when reversed, all your relationships are likely to be going quite well, generally speaking. You may have been receiving (and possibly ignoring) some constructive criticism which actually could be quite helpful to you. Look at your deeper personal “issues” and see if or how these are standing in your way – and if they are, how to work through them and integrate them. The idea now is to do what it takes to find balance – in yourself, in your relationships, and with your goals and aspirations. If you need help to do this, ask for it!
  • Hanged Man, reversed: When the Hanged Man shows in reverse, it’s possible that the time has come to let go of an outdated attitude, situation, or friendship. Think things through first, of course, but be aware that a sensible sacrifice made now of something that no longer works for you will open up your life to something even more positive than what you “let go of.” In reversal, this card particularly encourages you to not fight change.
  • Knight of Wands, reversed: Knights are often a sign that you are about to get a message, whether they show up in a reading reversed or upright. Unfortunately though, if you are using the reversals for interpretation, the Knight of Wands in reverse can signify that the message will be along the lines of “There will be a delay, you will have to wait.” If so, try to wait patiently. This Knight means what he says.

I asked another specific question about a career event I was about to have a week and a half later (it was this past Tuesday so I have the luxury of tell you how it ended up!).

The cards that came up for that question were: 3 of Swords, the Empress, Death, 4 of Pentacles (Reversed).

  • 3 of Swords: In general, this card can point to very deep emotional issues that must be addressed before the querent can move on. Denying pain does not make it go away (any more than denying a broken leg makes it heal.) However, attention must be paid to balance here. Your feelings or ego may be quite bruised by something that happens with relation to work. Try to keep this in perspective. Your whole life is not (or should not be) what you do professionally. You may need some assistance to find a better approach to work. Don’t hesitate to ask.
  • Empress: People are going to be more attracted to you than usual (in every sense) and you are likely to find people on your doorstep, wanting your advice/your shoulder to cry on. This will be beneficial to you because you are now going to be able to see yourself more in the way that others see you – as someone with wisdom, and a lot to offer. So share your hard-won perspectives on life, know that your wisdom and caring is valuable. People will be inspired by your ideas, your passions, and your way of doing things. Let your ‘inner voice’ guide you in how you operate. The empress directs us to follow our bliss, and that the rest will follow.
  • Death: The more accepting you can be of change of all sorts during this time, and the less you try to “control” the better and the more comfortable this time will be for you. Often what you need to “let go of” is some sort of self-limiting belief or attitude. Sometimes we just can’t see how our attitudes are hurting us, and when that is true, this time period can be a wake-up call. The energy of this time is not just change or destruction; it is change or destruction followed by renewal. Even though one door may have closed, another is opening. Will you have the courage to step through?
  • 4 of Pentacles, Reversed: With regard to work questions, the 4 of Pentacles reversed implies that you are far too worried about the safety and security of your job. This is understandable in the light of the current global economic uncertainty, but it can be counterproductive to worry so much, as it can actually make your work suffer. Think positively and focus on producing the best work that you can.

Final Card “Message from the Universe”: Inverted, 5 of Pentacles. In general, the reversed 5 of Pentacles says that in the recent past you may have felt “left out in the cold,” as though everyone but you had everything made in the shade – but that feeling is passing. Your confidence should be beginning to renew now. Trust any reasons you’re feeling for being upbeat.

This is what I wrote down after leaving the psychic about my experience:

Past: focused on career and working hard on building a life/home. Present: TRUST YOUR POWER and making decisions. Stick to your guns. Future: 7 wands I see you in front of lots of people.

KEEP BALANCE. Justice; moving into 30s focus on spiritual life and your own emotions, not what anyone else thinks. You are moving to the other shore. Gonna be really busy so remember to keep balance. Not gonna be as hard as you think to get to other shore.

Temperance: balance your emotional life with work life. This year post- showcase; careful not to think too much about others opinions- BIG CHANGE is coming (Death)- a lot os going to be asked of you. Get out in nature!! That is your happy place to re-charge; take advantage of the social aspect when you can.

Find your power. Trust your emotions and needs. Leave behind fear of scarcity.

Well, I have a LOT to think about! I’m glad I did this; it definitely made me focus on how I actually feel in my heart about goals and wishes for my future. The main thing I took away is that I need to release as much fear as possible and only then will I be able to move forward towards the next decade. But the best part? It looks like this next decade is gonna show me the growth and the blooming of the seeds I sowed in the last one. I can’t wait.

UPDATE: OUTCOME

Since getting this reading a few (kinda bonkers) things happened…

  1. After a YEAR of looking and trying and applying to what seemed like hundreds of jobs that never worked out, I finally got a day job that not only works for my schedule with acting, but utilizes my creative skills as well as activates joy. I could not be more grateful. The relief and joy that this brought me cannot be understated.
  2. The acting showcase I asked about happened last Tuesday; It was a surprisingly difficult emotional journey for me. I found myself dealing with intense insecurities I didn’t really know or acknowledge were there: that I wasn’t good enough, that I didn’t deserve it, that I was a “pity vote”, that I wasn’t popular among the cast members, etc. etc. I found myself looking for validation from anywhere I could get it. The more I worried, the more my experience and performance was negatively affected. At the end of the day, the performance itself went very well, though if I’m being honest, felt anti-climatic. HOWEVER, immediately afterwards I’ve been getting calls and appointments from industry higher ups for roles and positions I’ve been hoping for for years. It feels like the death of the old “fearful, green, untested” actor, and the birth of the seasoned, trustworthy, professional I’ve always wanted to become.
  3. In summary, this new day job fulfills my financial and creative needs. It is a new start for me, and more than that it takes the pressure off needing to succeed in the entertainment business. I can now release my fear that I won’t be able to support myself if I don’t “make it” as an actor, and begin to look at that side of life how it was always meant to be looked at: A chance to communicate with people for everyone’s greatest good. I will be busier than I have ever been since moving to LA, and after this reading, I will be actively looking to maintain the balance in my life!

 

 

 

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