A 29 year old’s journey to check off her “Last Chance 20’s Bucket List” before the big 3-0 comes in November of 2016, and learning not just to live, but to have a life, in the process.
Fair warning: this starts out super sad. But it gets better by the end, I promise.
A few years ago, in the space of 10 days, my father lost his 11 year battle with cancer, my best friend/roommate kicked me out of our apartment leaving me homeless, and the guy I thought I was going to marry announced he was moving across the country for grad school and was leaving me behind.
All of that affected me more than I allowed myself to admit and I pushed down the feelings of abandonment and depression for as many years as I could until finally, this year, I decided I was going to shrivel up and become a sad little shell of a person if I didn’t DO something about my situation. Like REALLY do something. The first step of which was admitting that, yeah, I was depressed.
You can read more about how I got to that point if you really want to, but the conclusion I came to was that I’d been living in a state of waiting for things to happen to me- good or bad. Of course I worked hard trying to make a living, but really, I didn’t have much of a “life”.
I found I’ve spent the latter half of my 20’s in an extraordinary way; taking care of your parents starting at age 24 kinda throws off the whole traditional “self-discovery in your 20’s” thing. It’s hard to watch all your friends find jobs, homes, life partners, get married, have children on purpose, etc. while you’re still scraping together babysitting money to make rent.
So rather than lament what happened to me and throw pity parties for myself for the rest of my life, I decided to start this journey. This “Last Chance 20’s Bucket List” is my way of taking back some of what was lost, but also jump starting the rest of my life from here on out. I do not want to be that sad person that life “happened to”. I want to be the person who makes things happen and, as cheesy as it sounds, lives life to the fullest.
I have no idea what is going to become of this blog. But I do know that I’m excited to start this journey, regardless of the outcome. I hope it inspires you, if you’re reading this, to get help if you need it. To make your own bucket list- even if it’s just one thing. To laugh, to learn, and to love as much as you can in the time we have on this planet. To DO something before you go.